Today’s wise words :
There’s a perfect God’s time ….for what we deserve and what we will have.
I trust in you God. You always know what you do,because I know you love me ♥
After some nights of thinking (some overthinking as well) it seems I’m getting to the point where I’m almost done. Yes,I’m almost done. I can pretend I’m fine with the fact that some people is so hurt inside that just want attention and care and everything for them without sharing. I know I’m almost done because if I think of something,and in the next morning I still think the same,It’s a sucess.
I will give one of the last chances this week. I’m planning it to be really good and to show,again,my interest on whatever is happening between us. I would love this to have for ONCE a happy ending,but nobody can be sure of anything in this life. I feel calmed and excited (hate to feel excited) but I’m playing a game I’m tired of. Love is not a game,nothing of this is a game. I know I like everything I see,but I have to start thinking of myself again. I like you,but I love me more. Thanks to my dear aunt that reminded me that some people miss the old me. I promise to try really hard this time. If I decided to stop smoking,drinking and else,this is an attempt I should follow. I need a miracle.
Beyond tired. So so so tired. Somebody’s heart is not a toy and if you play with a heart prepare yourself to be kicked in the fucking heart by somebody else. You may be traumatized and act like nobody understands you,but there’s a difference in the way you handle the pain. If you play with somebody,you gonna get it back 7 times. If you just suffer,are you hurting somebody besudes you?
One day,not so far away,I’m gonna be sooo tired that I will stop this,and it’s gonna be me. And I pray that one day,you will realize what you lost someone that fucking cares about you,and that day…everything will be fair for the first time of my fucking life. Peace and goodnight ♥
It has been such a hard day :( …Nobody takes me seriously…nobody :(
Nobody understands what is to have this problems for years…I’m so stuck.
Today would be a nice day to die :/ …I’m so …done with everything. Why nothing seems to go right in my life? :( …Why do I ask for a sign…just a fucking sign to keep on moving. There’s none. At the end of the day,I’m just alone again…with my brain fucking around everything I believe in :(
I should die today…really…It feels like the perfect day.
That awkward moment when you realized that you’re scared of that. Maybe one day I will be important for someone…but now…I would like to sleep forever :(
Can I? Maybe if I ask too hard will happen :( I need a mind eraser..and some dignity :/
OVERTHINKING. I can’t stop thinking gosh! Why everything I do or say or don’t do or don’t say haunts me!
I did what I felt right…so why feeling like I screwed everything up :(
I’m not a slut,I don’t do some activities with everyone! NOT REALLY. Why do I feel like maybe I became an “easy A” or that it was too fast? I would love for something to happen in a positive way to clear my head out. But yeah,it’s done so let’s move on with my lame life :/
No matter if I have to be a friend or anything,the whole point is that I would like to see you again and again. IWLYTTEOT
It’s been a while ..yeah
After a couple of days…I guess I can say I’m in this picture…This is how I see the world right now. I wish this was the end of the road for me. After days of great things and beautiful memories,all I can say is that I’m scared once again..but why feeling so stressed about things that have to happen anyways? Life shows me that,that you can’t fight your fate.
